This one is graduating today. Mommas everywhere know the
unique twinge that comes with this milestone. So much pride and joy, but also
reflecting back and thinking of how quickly it went by. You hear it from the
day they are born… that you’ll blink, and they will be grown. And now you try to remember the last time you
held their hand, they sat on your lap, you tucked them in… and you can’t. You know your job… to guide them to stand on
their own. And while you are amazed and proud, you miss that little person. I thought it might feel different with my
second one, but it is exactly the same.
But my #2 came by an unusual route; a little backstory…
In June 1989, when Sarah was 3 months old, Dr. Allee met
with Kelly and me to share my prognosis. He had hoped my heart would improve
after her birth, but it was still enlarged and weak. He talked statistics,
meds, and even that a transplant may be needed at some point (we had no idea
how soon), but all that was drowned out when he said, “no more pregnancies… ever”.
Fast forward 6 months to January 1, 1990, two months post-transplant,
and the Tallahassee Democrat runs an article about a local woman who has recently received the gift of life…me! A
beautiful new heart is beating inside of my chest; yet the outcome of my
surgery is still uncertain. That evening
a stranger calls our home. He shares how
the article blessed him and how God is being glorified through my story. And
then he says, “who knows why He has spared you… maybe you will have a child one
day”. Well, like Abraham’s Sarah, I laughed in my heart, thanked him for
his encouragement, hung up the phone, and pretty much
dismissed his words.
But I never forgot them. God continued to bless me and the
transplant was successful in every way. “You must have gotten your long-lost
sister’s heart”, Dr. Allee would say. I was able to see many milestones come
and go, overjoyed to be here to share them with my Kelly and precious Sarah
Jane. And I even met my donor’s family in 1994, just after the 5th
anniversary of my transplant. Dave and Vicki Brubaker gave me their daughter Tammi's heart, but also gave us their love and friendship. And three years after
we met, this precious girl’s heart would give us even more… another new
life, Ryan Kelly Burke.
God’s grace is amazing. He can do far beyond what we ever
dream.
Ryan Burke, I hope you know how much joy your life has brought to our
family. You are intelligent, handsome, generous, and focused. And you love like Jesus, without condition. What a gift you are to us and no doubt you
will be to many others as you begin this new leg of your journey. I am so thankful for you and proud to
call you my son. Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus...He has great plans for you.
Every good and perfect
gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no
variation or shadow due to change. –James 1:17